this is the expression for today :D today was really good, phy and i were both very happy girls. haha its like everything went our way, so we were feeling lucky and happy all day. we saw the people we wanted to see, math FA actually set our minds to think and we came up with solutions to the qns (like first time ever) and the lectures/break we had today had the right people in it. my bio retest was cancelled (like phy said since today was a good day) and now i only have to do one qn. terence treated me to honeydew-peach ice blended and durian milkshake! YUMM :) and how could i forget yummy fish from muslim stall. hahaha and eating my favourite hazelnut cube waffers now, wheeee :D okay just got news that our soccer boys drew 4-4. great comeback from 3-1 down at halftime! oh yay :) i think i'm being overly happy and using too many smileys. i'm so happy now i don't feel like studying. and there's trng tmr! YAY :D school has been okay, getting better i think. i'm trying to do studying everyday to be in tuned for midyrs. announcement of results to my parents turned out to be okay, and the driving force behind studying's mainly cos i feel damn guilty for my lousy results. i wonder if i can last till midyrs, hopefully. haha wonder if the 10 ppl i wrote the mesages for can guess which is for them. friends are really a blessing! anyhow, hope sam and terence (tan) are doing fine. pls take care you two, don't wish anything serious happens. hmm i'm craving for fried doughstick. haha i wonder why.
oh and i am never going to do that ever again. right ele? enough trauma from that one experience. alright, i think i need to do serious studying from now onwards.
and not be moved by you.
Pick 10 people (or more) from your friends list, say something anonymous to them. Don't say who it is, and don't reveal them unless they guess.
1. class hasn't been too good this year, but i'm glad that we've got each other! thank you for all your notes and diary writings, stickers and the many things you help me buy :) love you many many.
2. i think things between us are alot better now compared to 2 mths back and i'm still thankful for you being a part of my life. i don't know whether our friendship will last long, i hope it does though. but whatever the case i still want to thank you for the many things you've done for me and i do hope you'll succeed in the things you want to achieve. loves :)
3. haha i think you are a surprise among all my friends cos i never thought we'd ever come to this. but nevertheless, thanks for being there :) and stop trying to disown me you pangsai. hurr if not i throw your lifehouse cd away.
4. i love spending time with you because you can make me forget abt all my troubles. and because we have so much fun together (like all the time!) i think our friendship is so darn special in its own litle way. you dont know how thankful i am to have you here babe. you're my wonderwall :)
5. you have the ability to make me laugh and smile no matter what :D talking to you makes me really happy, and i'm realy glad we're still close since last year. you're one of my favourites!
6. i find it hard to talk to you now, i don't know why. but it feels like i'm builiding a wall for myself and i'm sorry if i have neglected you. but whatever it is, i'm here if you need someone.
7. at first i thought you were dao cos we never really talked much though we see each other at least twice a week. but getting to know you has been a great joy :) thanks for all the chats, outings and laughs (and the emo-ing sometimes)! i've had fun, really.
8. i think we're drifting and its sad to know that. i think you can feel it too, but at least we're still in the same school so we still meet each other. i miss your presence in class (cos class is getting worse) and all the silly things we used to do together. and i really think we ought to go out soon for like a major catch up sesh! love you.
9. i'm really glad we're much closer this year! thank you babe for all your pretty letters, cute stickers and smiles :)) you make me happy with your constant cheerfulness! :D haha a toast to our friendship.
10. i think cca is something i look forward to because of the company of you and the rest. this year has been good so far, i'm happy we got to know each other better and are getting closer. haha really enjoyed the time the three of us went out, and all our chats. YAY :)
i actually have alot of things to blog abt and i hope can rmb what i wanted to say.
yest i went out with ele and jason for lunch and some shopping, and i had a great time cos it made me forget my troubles and worries. lubx the both of you! :) ooh and hurry send the photos to me! i had dinner with my cell at uncle mike's house, chicken rice and lime cheesecake was yummylicious :D haha grp covanent-making was really funny, with brian and wayne being their comical selves.
and several issues mentioned during church today made sense to me. the sermon today was abt death and mourning. i wonder if anyone has things they want to say to me, but never did/ have the chance to. cos you'll never know when i won't be able to hear what you wanted to tell me. and i think i have things i have always wanted to tell others, its just that i feel its like inappropriate timing/ these things no longer matter. so, say what you want to say because you'll never know when you won't have the chance to. and the other point abt friends are a gift from God. i don't think i have ever thanked God for providing friends who love and care for me, because many of us tend to take these things for granted. so i just wanted to thank God for my friends, and those who made me feel cared for/ remembered over the past bad week;
ele jason nick eugene nikki melly liang jie terence phy kenny daniel sam weng andy jonas
i consider myself quite blessed :)
the past few days were just spent mostly on my hw and stuff. quite productive i would say, which is good to an extent cos i really need to start studying. life is quite sad now that i force myself to go straight home after sch almost everyday, and trying not to come online too often from now on so that i finish all my tutorials.
school hasn't been too good for many. its like so many people around me have had bad days this week, probably cos of results and other things. oh well, guess things like these do happen. i really thank miss lim for being uber nice to buy motivational messages for our class. teachers like her make us feel important and cared for. not forgetting terence. haha bear in mind my msg to you today and cheer up soon! liang jie too. haha stop worrying abt being emo cos everyone does. silly boy.
tmr's class gathering got cancelled cos of the lack of available people. oh well i guess we'll have to leave it till like june? which is terribly far away. haha but still gonna meet ele and jason tmr nevertheless. and dinner with my cell at uncle mike's.
okay i'm tired after a long day. trng was good cos i think i played quite well today. hopefully this maintains all the way till competition. and hopefully i don't get suspended from trng, cos if i do i think i will just die.
and there's still that constant happiness i get from going to sch :) yupp.
I don't have a clue
I don't have all the answers
Ain't gonna' pretend like I do
Just tryin to find my way
Trying to find my way
The best that I know how
Well I haven't got it all figured out quite yet but
Even if it takes my whole life
To get to where I need to be
And if I should fall to the bottom of the end
I'll be one step back to you
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i woke up feeling miserable. i just sat at my bed and frowned. its like i was stressed and troubled to the point where i couldn't breathe. like suffoscated and claustrophobic. school started out bad, i felt like crying just thinking abt my pathetic state. i told terence i felt as if i was going to burst anytime.
its scary how ppl don't act the way they truely are. and how so many things seem to be lies and facades. its terrible, annoying and i don't know why i am even bothered abt such things.
but anyway, thanks ele, terence and jason for today. lubx
Who's never weak but always strong
To protect you and defend you
Whether you are right or wrong
Someone to open each and every door
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i really love these pictures, captures alot of nostalgia.

hmm, conference last night was good. its a good way to help strengthen friendships, right? hahaha funny. and i dreamt of things/people just like what kenny told me happens to him. interesting, so i guess the people i dreamt of are the ones i haven't really been talking to. don't you think its time for a catch-up sesh?
dang, i didn't know julian was going for that funfair. if not i would have dragged myself to church to join him since he complains that he'll be damn lonely. haha oh well.
the hols are almost over, and i haven't completed my holiday hw. i think i shall be good and stay home today (like a have a choice) to finish them up. and i'm thinking abt what i plan to do tonight since... i have the house to myself. haha, wonder if my parents will allow if i go out.
HMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
i officially conclude that melly is cheekopeh too.
hahha happy now cheekopeh? :)
And I've got arms
Let's get together and use those arms
Let's go
Time's a wastin'.
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hahha i'm like stuck to time's a wastin'. such a cute duet by johnny cash & june carter. gosh can't believe i'm such a vintage freak now. hmm and reese witherspoon has such a great voice! haha okay sorry.
anyway, trng was alright. lunched with melly, liang jie, yimin, charmian and ele. yami (YUMMY!) yogurt was :) haha melly claims that its pronouned as yammy. hahha retard la. and i officially conclude that liang jie is a cheekopeh. HEH. shopped around at far east and i really am into vintage stuff right now, i so need to go shop for more clothes!
church later. wondering if its going to be boring :/ oh well nvm, i'll go find songs now!
My own epic drama, my own scripted page
I'll send you the rough draft, I'll seal it with tears
Maybe you'll read it and I'll reappear
From the start it was shaky and the characters rash,
A nice setting for heart ache where emotions come last
All I have deep inside, to overcome this desire
Of friendly intentions and fair-weather smiles.
like a Saturday night i'll be gone
like a Saturday night i'll be gone before you knew that i was there
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trng later, yay.
The only place
Where you feel sheltered,
Where you feel safe.
You lost yourself
In your search to find
Something else to hide behind.
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i was still quite happy in the morning cos of certain cheapthrill reasons. but i've been feeling urgh-worthy for the past 5 hours. its like there're so many emotions built-up within me that i had to let out. i don't even know where all these came from, all i know is that i felt like crying. i even gave up going to bowl.
can anyone even tell how i feel even if i don't show it? and, wouldn't it be nice if there was just someone who would say the right things at the right time to make you feel you're worth it.
i shan't go on being emo. i think i shall change blogskin and hope it doesn't make my blog lag.
and we're hanging by a thread.
i finally watched walk the line. oh yes it is vintage, but overall quite a nice movie (although melly and liang jie were sleeping throughout. haha) actually one of the reasons why i wanted to watch it was because i liked reese witherspoon. haha
ate subway and shopped at far east with ele! bought this necklace which i'm lovin' and did some chem hw at Han's. i can't eat properly the past few days, because my wisdom tooth is growing and it hurts. and then my gum is swollen i think. urghh
and, i still can't wait for trng!
Saying wasn't it just like swimming out on the lake?
And stars collide and the air's alive
Or was it just like those promises that you made
On our last night?
rockafellaskank 2 was so much better than last year's. the atmosphere was pretty good, but too bad me and phy were like sitting by ourselves, so we were like getting high by screaming and cheering along. frans and the pussycats were awesome (: and i thought random started kinda cool.
oh and i pierced a second earhole on the left ear yest while phy pierced her third on her left.
so yest was good i guess. like phy said, too many good-looking ppl around. HAHA. and i witnessed a couple quarreling in wisma. the woman was like shouting at her bf in the middle of a crowded mall just because he was late. goshh.
oh yeah, new blogskin. hmm i'm just into black and white now so this is simple and vintage!
holidays are going to be spent on my books i guess. its scary to see how ppl do so badly at a'level when they did decently fine at o'levels. and i am finally going for tuition after like dunno how long. hopefully it'll help me la.
argh, can't wait for trng!! i want to train. heh
It seems like yesterday I didn't know how hard I could cry
It feels like tomorrow I may not get by
But I will try
I will try.
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i'm getting depressed. i think if i don't start studying for a's now, i'm going to end up doing real bad for it. and i don't exactly know how to tell my parents how badly i've done for CTs. ptm is the worst affair.
admist all this, bowling banner is going to look so good when we hang it up tmr. haha thanks to gerard and his good art skills, not forgetting brandon also. and the rest of us were just sitting there helping to do touch-ups. oh and i really think watching mike and the rest play bball an uber entertaining thing to do. haha
jingtat and jonas are being retards online. haha oops sorry!
okay cca bazzar tmr, hope everything goes well.
Just singing out your name
And when I'm done, crashed and maimed
I hope that's where you'll find me
the CTs are finally over! (:
and yesterday i reached home at 1230 am. haha time well-spent i would say. i slacked in school after math with phong and louie. hahah looking out for a stalker was relatively exciting. then watched mike, nick and the rest play bball after they both left. met ele before trng to walk around far east, and then the team at gelare's. trng was spastic, but at least i found my line so i'm gonna work on my aiming from now on (if not the coach will make me do his stupid line excerise for an hour.)
dinner was the best. not the food, but the company was good. the initail plan to dine at chomp chomp's failed, so we went to cafe cartel. talking abt relationship problems made everyone so serious, but i really like the way how everyone tries to help and suggest ideas. michelle's going to AC but all of us were like psycho-ing her CJ is so much more fun. haha its just a different atmosphere there isn't it. si jie claims child-like and childish are different, and says he is child-like NOT childish. hahah and he is an ultimate camwhore! act cute boy, tskk. but dinner on a whole with nicholas, malcolm, nadia, yimin, michelle, sijie, gerrad and charmian was good. i enjoyed every single moment of it.
i'm so sorry for not turning up at the class party, i figured i would take forever to reach yishun.
oh and ele came over on thursday night to study math. haha but i think we ended up talking more then doing math. i had the bestest fun that night, we shd do all this more often! (: and photo time.

i wear a halo when you look at me.
CTs so far, well i don't think i'm going to make the grade. haha oh well as expected.
i love studying with ele everyday. makes me happy esp when we do have our fun together (: haha our mini destress formula of playing soccer with a water bottle, and walking around the field and trying to squish our faces against the school grills to look like prisoners. (!!!) hahah okay but it was really fun doing all of that. like i seriously have not had so much fun doing really random and cheapthrill stuff.
oh and happy birthday weiqin!
i suddenly can't recall what i wanted to blog abt. so nvm, i shall go drown myself in useless thoughts and thanks kenny, for the songs tonight (:
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