Love will tear us apart;

Thursday, February 26, 2009

I've got troubled thoughts and a self-esteem to match.

Cell today made me feel so ashamed of myself. All this time, I was running away from God. While He repeatedly sent reminders to draw close to Him, I kept giving excuses and pushed them away. Tonight, made me realise how much I must have saddened God.

I don't know why I keep rationalising, why I keep holding back. On one hand its so hard to for me to give up doing certain things, but on the other I am aware I need to. Its the only way I can restore my relationship with God. My friends always question the part about faith/religion restricting me from doing alot of things, but they don't understand that the wordly desires become insignificant when you turn your focus on someone so important. I know all of this, but at this very point in life I find it so hard to resist the temptations I'm faced with. Its something I constantly struggle with, and that keeps me away from God.

I really need to do something about my life. But the truth is, I don't feel like doing anything. And I doubt anyone really understands what I'm talking about either, but its alright because at least God knows. I really appreciate friends who respect my religion, I don't think I'm holy or anything because holiness isn't measured by the amount of time spent in church or whatsoever. Its personal, and mine with God isn't all that great.

Something I need to put extra extra effort in.

1:03 AM;

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

What a catch.

This is the coolest watch you can ever find!! Everything is invisible, except for the A/X sign. Just stare hard at it and your mind will read the time. Damn freaking cool, srsly. And the best part is it belongs to my bestfriend. HAHAHAHA

Eugene this is for you okay!!

1:56 AM;

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Bye John, I'll miss you :(

11:53 PM;

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

I just watched Slumdog Millionaire. I don't know why but I felt so sad looking at the living conditions of the people in Mumbai. They really literally live in the dumps. I can't imagine myself even stepping inside. And the orphans, they become the cash cows of the cruel, money-minded, selfish mafias. Its so sad, how they trick the children into thinking that by singing well they'll earn lots of money; only to pour acid onto their eyes so that they'll end up getting more money from singing along underpasses.

But the movie was really clever, go watch it! Indian movies are really entertaining hahaha

12:57 AM;

Saturday, February 14, 2009

HAPPY V'DAY EVERYBODY and my wishlist is working again (:

5:28 PM;

Friday, February 13, 2009

Okay, I suck at all the HTML stuff.

I was checking out blogskins.com and I really wonder how those girls create such pretty blogskins. I feel so useless hahahah. Anyway I somehow prefer my dull, grey, emo-looking blogskin. The sudden white wall makes me squint and feel bare.

Btw, I think I will change my banner/header picture. I just need to find the right picture(s) and create something. I'll think, soon.

5:24 PM;

Monday, February 09, 2009

RAHHHHHHH, I kinda regret not buying the cream studded bowler bag I saw at Zouk flea yesterday :(

6:02 PM;

I am so irritated that the Wishlist app on Facebook isnt working!! Stupidstupidstupid >:(

Anyway, the weekend was madness. It started off with Kenny's farewell at Jerome's condo, which was supposed to start at 6.30pm but ended up starting at almost 9pm. All thanks to them thinking it was an electric pit. So Pei Chien and me were left to guard the food, and we were so hungry we ate mashed potatoes from the pot. Anyhow, I can't believe Kenny's leaving so soon. It sure's gonna feel different without his ah beng antics around hahaha. And no I am not gonna cry when you leave Kenny.

So I arrived at Hyatt late, and I was punished to take this super horrible potent drink they mixed. And what happened to me next, I think everyone could guess. Never have I turned so red in my life!

Mel, Daniel, Wayne, Me & Van

Yeh my face was the same colour as my shirt. We had macs at I-dunno-what-time and I was munching on Calbee prawn crackers. We only slept at 7am because 2 guys were snoring damn loudly and we couldn't find a comfortable position to sleep. We had yummy lunch the next morning at The Ship Restaurant then headed home for proper sleep. The rest of the album here.

Okay, this week's gonna be packed again. I have no time to waste! Must get down to doing my assignments if not I'm screwed.

12:20 PM;

Tuesday, February 03, 2009

I smell crisis ahead.

But I don't know if I'm just delving too much.

And I have this issue. Its personal and its bugging the hell out of me.
Maybe I need counselling.

Maybe I just need to stop, and breathe.

4:43 PM;

Sunday, February 01, 2009

Should I change my blogskin??

YES or NO (~~circle~~ choose one)

7:30 PM;