Love will tear us apart;

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Okay pardon me if this is gonna be a very incoherent entry because I'm really quite tired. The past week has been really busy, I mean although I didn't have to work much but Christmas shopping took up half the time, plus hanging out with the bestfriends, Varney and John. I'm thankful for friends like these who feel like they're going to be there for me in a long time to come.

Oh gosh there is so much emotion I need to vent out and its like eating my insides. I can't explain how I feel, its all mixed up like a salad I just really really feel like tearing all my hair out so I don't have to feel so gross about myself. I can't, I need to stop feeling like this. The best way is to just plonk myself onto my bed and fall asleep. And PLS no more nightmares like the one I had last night which made me feel like I couldn't breathe. I was honestly freaking scared I didn't dare to open my eyes. What a bad dream, I'd rather not have any if they were going to be so disturbing.

2:15 AM;

Monday, December 15, 2008

Now I'm speechless, over the edge and just breathless.

I desperately need to clear my wardrobe because all the unworn clothes are piling up, and I have no space for the new ones. The navy blazer I bought off ebay turned out a little too big for me and I'm damn sad now. I should have just bought a shrunken one. Now that won't reach me till next june.

Anyway Lynn, Vania and John are back, so are Jerome + Weipeng + Stan! I think from now on I will only look forward to june and dec hols because its like I get to see them friends again. Well maybe not every year, but still I get to see a few of them each year. I had lunch at DTF today with the two Js, then met the guys + Pei Chien to shop around and then for supper at Chomp Chomp. Ahh good times again just like when they were all still in Sg.

Okay the re-enrolment thing today was such a waste of time. I had to wake up at 8am just to be in school for a mere 10mis to tick the modules I'm doing next year. Omgoodness felt so cheated of my beauty sleep. Jerome said I had massive eyebags as if I haven't slept in days. Thats it, the concealer is my bestfriend.

I was going to post the UO goodies, but I figured this post is long enough. Stan said shopping in London is mad when there's a sale. Hahaha I think I might be heading to UK next June if all things work out. I CANNOT WAIT!!! Urban Outfitters here I come hahaha. Okay I'll just post a few of the nice things.

{Clockwise: Rapscallion by Samantha Pleet Blazer with Vest, Rapscallion by Samantha Pleet Bow Print Dress, Rendez-Vous by Paul & Joe Sister Folichon Tunic, Cheap Monday Case Knit Sweater Dress}

I love the 2nd and 3rd dresses. As you all know I love bows haha, but the very thing I really want on my wishlist is a long-sleeved dress like the 3rd one by P&J. Maybe something chiffon would be nice and light. Okay thats all for now I'm so tired, gonna crash!

11:45 PM;

Thursday, December 11, 2008

HEY HO I'm back from the Children's Camp and I'm deadbeat. I slept a total of 3 hours the previous night and have been waking up at 7am the past 3 nights. Its a miracle I'm still surviving. Anyway it turned out to be pretty fun, there were the nice kids and the irritating ones who don't seem to listen. But nevertheless everyone enjoyed themselves some way or another. Photos... from Wayne who snapped in thousands (not kidding), and the shots I got of the finale performance from the last night to be uploaded soon.

Anyway greaaattt news! John the prawn is back and although he claims to be attending DMD camp I will not blame him, because he is my good friend and I've been waiting for him to return here hahahha. I'm also gonna start working less, so that I can spend more time meeting up with the friends who still bother meeting up, and also to do photography and sewing. Plus school is starting so thats not really something I want to look forward to. My results were crappy to the max so lets not talk about that.

Okay, its my brother's birthday so Happy Birthday! Remember to spend more time with the family yo.

1:18 AM;

Friday, December 05, 2008

I can't believe I kept replaying your image in my mind last night.

Eventhough I was so damn tired, I actually had time and energy to wonder why. But I really hate it whenever you give me this shit treatment its like you can't even be bothered to say a word to me? Its not like I matter anyway, I know. There are many more important people around you who are more worthy of your attention, I'm way outside that circle ever since the dinosaurs got extinct. So it was bloody awkward when I saw you again, not that you were very surprised or anything. But yknw what? I still can't get over the fact that I bothered. I actual fuckingly bothered about how you think or felt about me, now. Like maybe your impression of me is like some clubbergirl (thats what the whole world tells me but I'm not), or whatever. I don't know, I don't know why I am feeling so frustrated.

Its like a sick cycle carousel.

3:09 AM;

Tuesday, December 02, 2008

The wedding on Sunday, of Ivan & Cindy.

At my grandma's in the day; nice little garden solemnization and tea ceremony. High class buffet lunch and hello to my grandma's previous maid who served for 30years, and whom took care of me since I was born. Say hi also to my new nephew Josiah Nathaniel, who loves to sleep!

Wedding banquet at night was held at St. Regis. The whole hotel is super luxurious, very classy. Sometimes its good to have rich relatives eh haha. Anyway the dinner was pretty nice, individual portions are a plus, instead of the usual split-among-everyone-at-table. Fyi, our table had only 5 of us in the end due to some unforseen circumstance. Double portions!

Then I thought about my wedding in the future. Hawhaw yes I do hope to get married! Always so heartwarming and lovely to see wedding photography, isn't it??

12:11 AM;