Love will tear us apart;

Sunday, January 27, 2008

Well you're art, you fell into this part
You play the victim perfectly holding your beating heart.

Wow I actually did some studying today. Organisational Behaviour is quite an interesting subject.

I need to go and get a thumbdrive and a laptop. Maybe I'll do it tmr since Sim Lim is so near my church. This coming week is going to be filled with free time since I only have school on wed. Haha how lucky! Guess there'll be lots of time for meet-ups, catch a movie or two, late-night suppers and time to do some studying. Tsk and I really have a list of things in mind that I want to start on, which have been left hanging for a long time. Like getting my stupid driving done, experimenting in photography, setting up an online store and even learning the bass guitar. I think I've been too much of a dreamer, its time to put all that into action.

I'd really like to get alot of things done in 2008. Maybe its to make up for the total waste of 2007. I really really really felt as if I wasted a whole year, imagine what I could have accomplished if I didn't procrastinate or been lazy. Honestly feel like punching myself.

Okay everyone can help to remind me not to be lazy. Timely reminders and encouragement would really be appreciated! I just don't want 2008 to go down to the drain. A new year, a new start. Haha kinda late to say this since its alr the end of jan, but nevertheless not too late to start!

Getting late, so I'm off to bed.

12:36 AM;

Thursday, January 24, 2008

Electric bird.

I was tagged to do this.

Name five of life's simple pleasures that you like most, then pick five people to do the same. Try to be original and creative and not use things that someone else has already used:

1. Lying in bed way past my wake up call.
2. Listening to Athlete on a long bus ride home.
3. Having supper/drinks/icecream with the people staying around my neighbourhood.
4. Writing in my planner/diary.
5. Taking random pictures.

I shan't tag anyone, but this is pretty nostalgic so get down to it. And yay I'm off to Ikea now. Meatballsssss! (:

6:23 PM;

Saturday, January 19, 2008

Twenty-four hours.

I was going to upload photos from Melissa's birthday dinner but my camera is downstairs and I'm too lazy to get it. But anyway, I met her after dinner to shop for chinky new year clothes and we had yummy drinks at the very nice Coffee Club opposite cine.

I had my hair trimmed today and it feels so light now. I also need more new clothes! I walked and tried so many pieces of clothing today but I didn't get anything. I think I can only shop with my mum around cos she makes me try clothes, and she pays for them haha. I'm feeling so random, but listening to Into Oblivion by FFAF really makes me very happy and it never fails to put me into the whole "I love post-hardcore music" mood. Haha now I know why I love FFAF, and I won't ever forget watching them live.

Hmm I have a bbq tmr evening in school and its supposed to be like a networking session/ social night sorta thing. And I can alr forsee what they have in plan with the stupid colour scheme for the swinging singles to the attached but available and the attached but not available people. I think I shall just be defiant and wear black.

And guess what? Phong and Eugene weren't kidding when they told me they are going to crash the bbq. HAHHAHA seriously, what funny friends I have.

2:50 AM;

Monday, January 14, 2008

Step 1: Put your MP3 player or whatever on random.
Step 2: Post the first line(s) from the first 20 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song.
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 4: Strike out the songs when someone guesses correctly (No lyric hunting! That is cheating!)

1. I picked you out of a crowd and talked to you.
2. I'm back in Liverpool and everything seems the same. (kenneth, this is too easy for you)
3. To watch the leaves grow on the trees with you is out of question.
4. Oh Five A.M. on the bathroom floor from the night before.
5. Oh no, she's not a secret now. (jiajun)
6. This is a song about susan. (I seriously doubt anyone would be able to guess the songs from #1 till now haha)
7. Well I saw fireworks from the freeway (charly)
8. When I was a little boy I used to wonder (OKAYY nobody would know this song besides 2 of my friends haha)
9. Light starts in a dark place
10. Lets get drunk
11. San Francisco bay, past pier thirty nine (charly)
12. When we were lovers, we were kissers
13. Someone to hold me tight that would be very nice (aiyah so easyyyyy)
14. This is my life; Its not what it was before. (kenneth)
15. You went up and down inside my head
16. Looking back I clearly see what it is that's killing me (kenneth)
17. I broke into your house last night
18. I'm an engine driver on the long run (jiajun/ kenneth)
19. Day upon day it's a race to be known
20. I've never been the kind that you'd call lucky

OKAY happy guessing I really think some are pretty hard unless you listen to strange songs like I do. HAHA

//Kenneth isn't so smart. I gave him so many cluesssssss hahaha

2:12 AM;

And now I let my dreams consume me,
And tell me what to think.
But hold on,
Hold on.
What am I dreaming?

Wait, don't go away.
Just not yet.
Cause I thought,
That I had it.
But I forget.

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Sometimes I really wonder why some people call you their friend but they don't even seem to give you the slightest bit of concern. Nobody really bothers, trust me.

Its the 2nd week of school, somehow I'm a bit more excited. Somehow there seems to be something to look forward to every week (school is not included) and for this week it happens to be Mel's bday and the social night bbq thing. I guess I will have my OG there so it should be quite alright?

I think I need to get a life soon. I refuse to go on getting affected and thinking about really ridiculous issues that in fact, should not even bother me. I don't even know why I care so much, its not as if I will get anything back in return.

Once again I find myself waiting, and waiting is tiring.

I find myself dreaming, but dreams get you no where.

1:08 AM;

Saturday, January 12, 2008

If you are the red, then I am the green
And when you see the flurry, will you think of me?
If you bring the mountains, I'll be the snow
And if you get tired, I'll be your home.

The sun has somehow soaked up all the energy I had. Other than that, my back is burnt and I'm a little tanner than before.

I was actually writing what I will be sharing on sunday for the mission conference in church. But I couldn't really concentrate so I decided to get back to it later. I mean I don't want to write it for the sake of getting it done asap so that I could do something else, I'd rather write it when I have the time to think through about what I'm going to say.

So, I realised that alot of my friends are attached. Like perpetually almost all those who are pretty close to me are, which once again makes me feel ultra lonely. Its been a long time anyway. I think I have already forgotten how it was like to be together wih someone. Looking back never fails to remind me how innocent and young I used to be, and at that age I thought I was ready for love, ready for whatever that will happen in the future. Haha guess not.

I don't know if I'm ready or not. Maybe I've been lonely for so long that I don't exactly dare to open up to anyone for that matter. I just keep telling myself that I don't need someone yet. Its strange but recently I miss having someone around. Its worse when so many of your friends around you are attached, and worst when they try to introduce you to their friends haha omg seriously. Not that its a bad thing but just makes you feel sad for yourself.

Its nice to imagine being in love, thanks to watching movies like Paris Je'taime and Serendipity. But love just seems so hard to come by, and in my case, I really doubt it will be anytime in the near future. But you know, its okay because now I have school to keep me busy. I guess it will come when the time is right.

Okay I really should try to get my writing done and go get some sleep. I'm kinda exhausted but I won't have much time to do my writing tmr so I better be disciplined and do it now. Bryan's birthday bbq tmr night, followed by sunday church service and me sharing. How exciting haha.

1:11 AM;

Thursday, January 10, 2008

So if your crazy I don't care you amaze me.

I really think crazy people amaze me. I don't mean like the person is literally deemed as a crazy person, maybe he has crazy thoughts, a crazy laughter or like crazy acts in a hilarious manner. Okay that was so random but I can actually think of a few people who really amaze me. They're somehow, captivating.

Okay so maybe school isn't that bad now. But accounting isn't fun at all seriously. I am going to spend the afternoon tmr trying to understand whatever I've been taught over the past 3 days so that I don't feel too lost. There is so much to remember! Sheesh.

Anyway it was a happy day and tmr would be another happy day too I hope!

1:39 AM;

Monday, January 07, 2008

Its only the first day but I'm starting to dislike school.

Ugh bye I'm off to do tutorial questions.

9:43 PM;

Saturday, January 05, 2008

First of the gang to die.

So, I went for orientation yesterday and I believe it was one of the most boring and draggy orientations ever. Not that the people there weren't nice or whatever, it was just too long. Luckily Marie was there with me. Not to forget that I was hand-tied to a guy in my OG throughout the whole games session as one of the handicaps every group was supposed to have.

I was suppsoed to go meet my class pppl for dinner but I was really tired and dirty from a whole day of games and stuff, so I went home to bathe and came out later to join them. But a few of them were leaving by the time I was about to reach so I decided to just meet Dea and head down to Home.

The music last night was awesome! I haven't had so much fun at Home Club in a while and last night was great. Looking at Joel and Tim dance like mad was super hilarious and it was even funnier when they went up onto the platform HAHA. Bumped into Shout there, and then Stan, Ian, Kenny, PeiChien came so it was a pleasant surprise. Ah well and then now its back to reality cos I start school on MONDAY.

Okay I think I'm gg to be late meeting Mel. Tonight should be fun, I haven't seen my cell ppl in a while (:

3:38 PM;

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

Does it feel good like a memory
When you try some history
It's a dream to come around
The rule doesn't bend
Because the taste doesn't taste the same again.

The first day of 2008 was spent at home and in bed. I practically slept half the day away, it was so boring. I'm starting to worry about school starting in less than a week and how I'm going to cope with all the assignments and projects and exams when I've been bumming around for a year.

And guess what? I'm going to work at Cathay tmr after not working for a month. Things at the store have changed and I dont exactly welcome it but, I'm washing my hands off it. Knowing too much sometimes isn't all that good. Some people put on a facade just to be the nice guy, well I'd say screw you, FOAD.

I don't know how well 2008 will be. All I know is its not really going to be an easy year to cruise past because of the mulitple challenges ahead of me. I just hope that the people who were with me through 2007 will still stay around me, and the new friends I make this year will be equally encouraging.

I can't wait for saturday.

11:29 PM;