Without love.

Hairspray was such a nice movie! zac efron AHHHHH! (phy and huihui were super funny la). anyway, there are lots of movies i wanna catch and that includes Ratatouille, No Reservations, Bourne Ultimatum, and maybe Evan Almighty. wah but spending so much really sucks la, luckily got free movie vouchers to use.

work today was tiring and because of Ratatouille, the crowd was huge. kat and i almost died and some indian man called to tell me not to close the shop until he gets here cos he wants to buy NewYorkSuperFudgeChunk icecream. and my whole family plus vania's family came down to visit me and wait for me to end work, i was so stressed and embarrassed cos my dad was sweeping the floor! ZZZZZZZ. that reminds me, vania, trina and grace( her sisters)are flying off to hk in another few hrs. they shd be getting out of bed in another 90mins or so hahaha. i so wanna go too but nvmm save money.

gosh wesley sent me almost the whole of the Hairspray album and its so cheery and nice to listen to! just that i'm too sleepy to listen to happy shalalala sunshine songs right now so i prefer Rachel Yamagata. okay i think i shd get to bed hopefully i have plans tmr afternoon HAHA.

1:47 AM;

And I didn't mean to meet you then
When we were just kids.

well lets see. one sentence to sum up today would be; 'Dawn ate alot today'.

had lunch at this quaint little place near bugis junction called Food For Thought with auntie yvonne cos Miss Clarity's Cafe was booked for a party. okay firstly, you probably won't feel like you're in sg when you enter the place. and everything inside is just very warm and cosy. plus the food was really yummy and its not that pricey either, more worth that Toast i would say. and both of us had a sampler platter where we could choose 3 half sandwiches, 2 soups and a salad. it was REALLY filling by the time we were done with the salad. sadly, the nutella cupcake wasnt that fantastic, i prefer the one from Toast.

and so i was really full but i had a wedding dinner to attend at night! we had chinese food at Min Jiang at Rochester Park and i must say the whole place is very nice. the ambience was fantastic la, if not for the rain that came in the evening. and i loved my cousin's wedding gown la.

anyhow backtrack one day! i met hafi on friday after not seeing her for like dunno how long. haha did the usual eating and shopping then we went to cathay to watch the bands. took a few polaroids and tried to avoid eye contact with certain individuals haha.



YAY COTTON ON! :D

sorry backtrack 2 days! vania and i went shopping at vivo in the morning and i really wanted to buy new clothes but i resisted somehow. then we headed to Central at clarke quay but it was so weird cos the mall had lots of escalators that were leading to unknown destinations! you cant even see the end of the stupid escalator, its so long. anyway the mall's kinda boring so yeah, besides having nice eateries there there isnt much thought its quite big.




VANIA TAN my sister from another mother HAHA


okay friends time for bed and more shopping awaits tmr yay.

12:57 AM;

That's what you get when you let your heart win.

photos when vania came over on monday night! we went to chinatown to shop in the day and i finally bought my vintage elastic belt buckles. i am so gg back there to shop again, alot of nice clothes :)


hahhaa what was i doing???

yay the first polaroid picture!
(I AM A WHITE FREAK)

this was from sunday in a big toilet with huge mirrors haha.
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polaroid with sharon's new fuji instax!

sharon dear we have to meet soon!
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met nikki and ele for lunch today + shopping! haha i made them buy new clothes while i resisted cos i was going broke. catching up was fun and laughing at random things! ele and i met john for dinner at gardens and ele, we really are pigs la we are bottomless pits!! HAHAHAHA but nvm i love the malt krispies flavour icecream at ice cube!

<33

11:02 PM;

12:19 AM;

YES the rain finally stopped!

as if last night wasn't bad enough, i had to wake up to a rainy day. let me tell everyone what happened at cathay ben and jerry's last night. due to a very screwed up tap in the cupboard, we experienced unforseen weather changes in the store. the stupid tap broke (RAHH) and water started gushing out like mad, and so i got soaked. haha and i think i must have been stunned so i closed the cupboard door and the whole store started to flood. daphne just stood there dazed and kept giving me napkins to dry myself while i went to get an umbrella (HAHA WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING) in an attempt to shelter myself cos i had to off the idiotic tap.

i was traumatised okay. and i had to franitically mop up the store i felt like i was in a market. bloody shit i am never going to touch that stupid tap anymore!

okay good now i gotta rush out to meet wayne and go shop for michelle's bday present for her bday dinner tonight. and work beckons tmr morning rawrs :(

2:33 PM;

I shouldn't love you, but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you, but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
Cause I don't know how to make the feelings stop

Just so you know
This feeling's takin' control
Of me and I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

It's gettin' hard to
Be around you
Theres so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
Cause I don't know how to makethe feelings stop

Just so you know
This feeling's takin' control
Of me and I can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let 'him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

This emptiness is killin' me
I wonder why I've waited so long
Lookin' back I realize it was always there, just never spoken
I'm waitin' here
Been waitin' here

/Jesse McCartney - Just So You Know
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I think this song is nice. I still remember in j1 how jesse mccartney songs used to make us very happy, and how some guys used "beautiful soul" to tell girls they fancied them. this song doesn't exactly make me happy, its just real.

I'd hate to think that 2007 is a joke, but coming to think of it, this yr has passed too fast with too many mistakes. it makes me really sad to look back on a year filled with regrets, and then it makes me question myself whether i truely deserve all these treatments.

I like to look back on the happy times which seem very very far away. its been a long time since i've felt like i'm in a place where i don't want to leave.

my friends tell me not to lose hope, i guess i'm still hoping, and waiting.

1:56 AM;

1:54 AM;

Lying in my bed
I hear the clock tick
And think of you
Caught up in circles
Confusion is nothing new
You say go slow;
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds

If you're lost you can look
And you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you
I'll be waiting
Time after time

/Quietdrive - Time after time
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If you only knew.

2:23 AM;

Time after time.


I caught 881 with nick on sat, and ended up crying like what lynn told me. but i thought it was a pretty good movie, a different style from the usual local films so pls go catch it soon. anyhow, we headed to cathay and i met up with ele and sharon. i'm pretty much sick and tired of always having to put up with the nonsense ppl give, so i'm not gg to care so much cos it'll be a never-ending affair.

we made our way to the artshouse in the evening to watch this gig thing cos The November Iris and a few other bands i know were playing. haha i got a shock cos the room the gig was held in was kinda small, and then the freaking band played super loud music. i was seriously hoping for them to get over and done with so that jas, zahir and the rest could showcase themselves haha. sharon and ele were like laughing at all the RAHH RAHH, while i was alr having a headache from the screaming. gotta say TNI played damn well, and it was as if everyone went there just to watch them cos part of the crowd started to leave after they were done.

haha i thought from then on, the gig became surprisingly nice. cos this band played 'Quit Playing Games' by BSB and everyone in the room just sang to it la. haha yes gay music is nice too, esp when everybody is enjoying it. and the last song for the day was played by jas and zahir (who calls themselves Self Confessed haha so emo). an acoustic cover of 'Hands Down' by Dashboard, which happened to be one of my all-time favourites. by then, all the ppl that were moshing and running around were alr half dead and lying on the ground haha.

i hope i don't have to go down for meeting tmr cos its like my off day. and i wanna go for a swim too. time to get down to working out before i become a block of fats.

6:50 PM;

Its funny how so many issues can pop up in a span of like 2 days; and not to mention that these are the little things that really set me thinking.

you know how fridays are always very tempting for me to go out and have fun. but of all days, cell group has to be on fridays. today's cell made me feel really guilty because i know i have never really put God to be the #1 person in my life. and to tell you the truth, being a christian was never easy. i'm actually very afraid that i might falter and do smth wrong, but at least i still manage to stand my ground on the past occasions. though i gotta admit i made a HUGE mistake recently that i don't really want to talk abt.

i'm damn glad that everyone from church wants to grow together spiritually, and i know it'll take lotsa effort from every individual to commit time every friday to come together. its good that we have this common aim in mind, and its abt time we started off anw. well things are going to get better for all of us for sure. stronger bonds and closely-knitted relationships are exactly the things we were all looking for.

anyway several things happened in the wk which kinda disgust me. its sad how we all seem to say stuff which we don't mean. or rather, we say it so easily that we don't actually understand the true meaning at all. we say 'i love you' so often, but honestly who really understands what love is? i guess we ought not to trust others too easily because their nice words can actually turn back to cut you instead. haha i know i must have quite warped thoughts but maybe cause i haven't thought abt so much stuff for a long time.

but what really scares me most are the multiple facades ppl put up. yes i know its hard to be as true a person you are to like everyone around you, but it scares me to see split personalities. and i dont understand how some ppl can like change in a blink of an eye, its really disgusting and freaky. never thought i'd be feeling so er xin ever but whatever. its disappointing, and i'll never look at you the same way again.

i hope i can wake up later for the movie cos its like 4 in the morning and my movie is at 1240pm. and hopefully the gig i'm gg for is good. ok gdnight.

2:36 AM;

YOU DISGUST ME.

2:30 AM;

The world is black, hearts are cold.



Happy National Day.

I'm kinda zoned out right now after a long day at work but I'm happily downloading songs into my com haha. SHARONTANSZEYING i finally know the song i've been trying to find out hahaha! okay cheapthrill but whatever, i've been trying to get the tune into my head so that i can find the song somehow.

i spent my tuesday at my neighbourhood. like finally somewhere besides town. ele came over in the afternoon for a time of catching up, then we met jason for dinner at chompchomp. i swear we were gluttons omg. the crepes at icecube were yummy, and thats when sharon called but all i heard was a very lame wesley oh. haha the freezer joke was actually quite funny but still, LAME AH. john came after work when we went to cartel (to eat again), and jason was alr horrified at our eating capacity by then hahaha.

ohmytian its like 330, in another half an hr i could sing 4 in the morning by gwen stephani. okay not funny i think i shd go to bed now gdnight!

3:14 AM;

Hold on before its too late.

photos from a million yrs ago.

went for Baybeats '07 today and it was so loud i think i almost went deaf. plus the place was filled with mats and weird old men who were dancing to heavy metal music OMG. dea and i couldn't stop laughing at the weird man who was dancing till even his gf/wife walked away from him hahaha. and of course there was the usual moshing, carrying of ppl and splashing of water. they think they at wildwildwet siah.

we met up with chandra and his friend nanda. bye chandra! have fun studying in NY haha and i want to see the poster you are doing for federer! anyway after watching Kate of Kale, we left for Holland V to eat Cold Rock's. we decided that we are gonna try mix-ins with our B&J icecream tmr hahaha. how exciting! i mean it would be really cool, though B&J icecream is alr solidly filled with chunks and goodies.

more photos!



some china band called TooKoo haha.

and a psuedo artistic shot by dea hahaha

alrightty better get some slp now. i'm strangely feeling alot better after talking to nick, watching manu win their first match against chelsea and eating dublin mudslide after a really long time! and hello BFF i hope our plans for end of the yr work out (:

1:29 AM;

I said, "I've got to be honest,
I've been waiting for you all of my life."
For so long I thought I was asylum bound,
But just seeing you makes me think twice.
And being with you here makes me sane.
I fear I'll go crazy if you leave my side.
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I can't really get to sleep but i will have to soon cos i gotta be up slightly earlier tmr.

sometimes i just really feel so bloody lonely. i'm surrounded by people, but i just feel like i'm standing here alone to fend for myself. everyone seems to be floating in and out of my life, and i don't like that feeling cos maybe i need a constant. i've always wished i were a bit more independent and strong so that i don't have to depend on others, but i guess that wouldn't really work.

i miss CJ. if only every year was like j1, because i really don't wanna grow up. i really don't.

sigh, nvm. i'm off to bed.

1:45 AM;

is 21 OMGZ
gemini
enjoys icecream, baking & sweet treats
graduates in a year and a half
white.black.grey.navy. boringboringboring much?

loves God, and friends
loves music and tigerlily; the 60gb ipod video
fashion, vintage, polaroid junkie
1706 is the day! :D


M83/graveyard girl
Tilly and the Wall/pot kettle black
Tilly and the Wall/rainbows in the dark
The Jealous Girlfriends/roboxulla
Parachute Band/living rain
Kings of Convenience/misread
Yelle/je veux te voir (club-club version)
New Young Pony Club/the bomb
Hillsong/to the ends of the earth


friendster

MTV 1T37 first intake 1T37 second intake cj bowling
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