Thursday, February 14, 2008
Yesterday threw everything at me.
Its exactly one year since the first day I started working at B&J. Sadly, I haven't been working anymore because of school, and I guess things are different now too. I probably will drop by Cathay soon, kind of miss the place.
So much for wanting to study today. The National Library was packed and the security guard didn't allow us in with our notes when the previous times we brought them in. So we ended up at Macs but there were no power-points, eventually we went back to the library. I became so sleepy halfway reading through my CSR references, plus I wasn't able to do my accounting hw. I really feel damn stupid now.
Btw, Happy Valentine's Day everyone. I was trying to recall how I spent the last few v'days, but I suppose this year would go down as the most boring v'day ever. At least I was working like mad last year during v'day, this year I have my books and work for company.
Things aren't exactly the best for me at this point in time. I feel like I'm slowly fading away just like what Eugene was telling me. I don't know, I'm really trying very hard to stay focused but its not very successful. And there are some issues bothering me, but somehow I'm always afraid to share it with others. I just leave it alone, dwelling inside my crumbling soul. I know I can look to God for help and strength, but I really feel so unworthy. Especially after tonight's cell, I felt so guilty and ashamed. Its like I know I need to do something about it, but I'm just taking the easy way out by running away. And running away has proven that, its not the solution.
I don't have the time to go and figure every single problem out. Not for now at least, I have to go and get my assignments and work done, study for tests and I'll be off to bkk in 3 wks. Maybe it'll be a good time then for me to take time off to ponder. I really want to get a film camera, so that I could capture my perspective and share it with the rest of the world. I will get down to that soon, but for now I think its better I concentrate on what is needed to be done.
Its exactly one year since the first day I started working at B&J. Sadly, I haven't been working anymore because of school, and I guess things are different now too. I probably will drop by Cathay soon, kind of miss the place.
So much for wanting to study today. The National Library was packed and the security guard didn't allow us in with our notes when the previous times we brought them in. So we ended up at Macs but there were no power-points, eventually we went back to the library. I became so sleepy halfway reading through my CSR references, plus I wasn't able to do my accounting hw. I really feel damn stupid now.
Btw, Happy Valentine's Day everyone. I was trying to recall how I spent the last few v'days, but I suppose this year would go down as the most boring v'day ever. At least I was working like mad last year during v'day, this year I have my books and work for company.
Things aren't exactly the best for me at this point in time. I feel like I'm slowly fading away just like what Eugene was telling me. I don't know, I'm really trying very hard to stay focused but its not very successful. And there are some issues bothering me, but somehow I'm always afraid to share it with others. I just leave it alone, dwelling inside my crumbling soul. I know I can look to God for help and strength, but I really feel so unworthy. Especially after tonight's cell, I felt so guilty and ashamed. Its like I know I need to do something about it, but I'm just taking the easy way out by running away. And running away has proven that, its not the solution.
I don't have the time to go and figure every single problem out. Not for now at least, I have to go and get my assignments and work done, study for tests and I'll be off to bkk in 3 wks. Maybe it'll be a good time then for me to take time off to ponder. I really want to get a film camera, so that I could capture my perspective and share it with the rest of the world. I will get down to that soon, but for now I think its better I concentrate on what is needed to be done.
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